I'll follow you into the dark...

Okay so the smoke-free related insomnia has finally gotten to me enough that I'm trying the drastic. Currently too poor to invest in sleeping pills (it's pills or food right now...though the pills may yet still win next week...) I am refusing to sleep tonight. It's dawn. So far so good. I am going to caffeinate myself until this evening and hope that I will collapse in sleep deprived exhaustion and reset my sleeping pattern.

I really hope this works because I've tried everything else and after a week of managing to scrape a few hours of restless sleep a night is just not working for me anymore.

I don't tend to share these kinds of things with the F-List... dunno why really. But tonight I'm sat, relaxing from the constant battle with my nicotine addiction by listening to Clint Mansells soundtrack for The Fountain. The Fountain is a strange but visually glorious film. I recommend it for the pretty, though the plot is a bit weak. However, the music is absolutely breath taking. And so I suggest you get yourself to You Tube and listen to the whole thing on a play list. But to get you going

An in depth meme about...me.. lol. Please join in guys ^-^ It's long but you can keep answers brief or as long as you like


1. Your given name, include middle name if applicable.
Charlotte Jane

2. Is there a story behind how you were named?
The woman my mum shared a maternity room with nicknamed me Charlie Cream Slice, and though I refused to be Charlie for years, now I won't be called Charlotte anymore if I can avoid it. Jane is my mothers middle name.

3. Year of birth, what happened that year that you can remember?
1987...er lots of things I imagine. The only thing I know is that Dirty Dancing was released? XD WIki says: The Simpsons began as shorts on The Tracey Ullman Show, Guns n Roses released their first album. Black Monday....which I probably should have remembered was in 87 lol. The first Final Fantasy was released and Prozaxc made its debut. Interesting year!

( Long meme! It's interesting though =D )

Because I got so much support in my last post :) I am well through my second day of being a non-smoker. It was for the most part much better than yesterday! I don't feel so dizzy today. My problem today has been feeling hungry and not wanting to eat too much! I'm very concious of the fact that I am already over weight and really don't want to pile on the pounds whilst quitting. But daaaaaamn I have been hungry all day.

Also I am sick to the back teeth of chewing gum already. Might buy some low-sugar hard candy tomorrow to swap between. The gum is helping no end though and I haven't felt desperate all day really apart from once.

On a positive, I caught a whif of my hair a little earlier and was all happy to notice it STILL smelt like my shampoo. Usually by this time of the day it wouldnt smell of anything...or rather it would smell of smoke. So yey for smelling sweeter! Oddly enough... I'm not having anywhere near as much trouble as I thought I would. I know it's early days yet but I honestly thought I'd be climbing the walls by now. So far so good!

I am going to bake tomorrow... probably peanut butter cookies and something else. Maybe choux buns or something like that. Then Tuesday there are vague plans to do a charity shop wander. I've got to not spend any money as well though... Roll on loan day. Weds and Thurs I am working at the uni open days then I think I have the house to myself all weekend. Lonely. 

Theeeen as a reward for hitting 10 days smoke free I'm gonna go see Dorian. I hope it's good. I'll be sad if it's not good.

I quit smoking today. My last cigarette was at about 3:30am last night/this morning when I came in from clubbing. I'm writing this here becaaaause I've misplaced my actual diary.

I've gone completely cold turkey and am using regular chewing gum as a replacement at the moment. I felt pretty strange for most of the day but right now I feel rubbish. I feel sick and very woozy/detatched - like just after waking up from a long afternoon nap you didn't mean to take. It's that horrid wobbly feeling. Yuck. I think also it probably has something to do with not having slept so well last night. But! I think I can do this, which is the best feeling in the world. Every time a craving wells up I just keep telling myself that I rode out the last wave, I can do this one too.

I'm really grateful to have the support of my friends, especially Cat. She is a proper legend. Everyone is behind me too and I just have to think of all the many shiny benefits of not smoking to pull myself through.

My big reward is starting horse riding again. Financially - now that I've quit smoking I can already afford (when I get paid lol) to go horse riding every other week. Yay! Hopefully that will work out! I can't see any reason why it wouldn't.

I'm gonna drink some milk shake, get in my pjs and watch PotC2 to distract me until sleepy time.

Time since my last cigarette: 17.5 hours.

Just in case anybody has missed this, I want to introduce to you all The Guild. This is a music video they did which is very cute, but the series is pretty funny indeed! 5-8minute shorts for all those MMOers out there.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=urNyg1ftMIU

I managed to get my camera to turn on quickly! I liked this one too much not to try, yey for random last tiny surges of battery life.

Hand to face ratio fail! lol... Obviously I didn't notice until uploading..and now I am way too lazy to do the hand again. Or the face. Nope. =D You have to look at it anyway, bwaha.

One behind now... Yesterday was a bit of a bad one. =) I did do two today, but one is just.. not what I wanted =) I'll do two tomorrow as well and see how we go. Or maybe one later.

For now here's todays!

Kitty!! I had a request for a catgirl today... so here she is =) I forgot to excuse this before..but if you couldn't tell, I'm having to take photos of my doodles and then edit them in photoshop so that they actually look almost like they do here on paper. This one is over exposed but...meh it's nearly midnight and I don't much care anymore XD...

Struggled with finding my muse a bit today. Mostly because my first attemp didn't turn out like I wanted it to. But I love the arms and hands on this one, so here she is.

For some reason LJ wouldn't let me in for all of yesterday. It was very odd! Here's part 5/20 =)



(I have since fixed the size difference in her hands ^-^ but am too lazy to take another picture, lol...)

Biscuits! ^o^ They're not my best bake ever, but they're cute =) (I am a bit shit at icing though.. as you can see, lol...) I did make a really lovely apple and raisin cake but I was too eager to get it out the tin and it fell aparts >.>' it's gonna be served with custard later on bwahaha.

Today is two pikkies ^-^ Because the actual art is the outfit ~ but I liked the picture of Ace's boots in the puddle more as an art =D




Man cardigan! Bad picture, cute outfit methinks =D Slouchy boy clothes ^-^ which will hopefully (most likely...) fit Kai too.

Parents are blaming me for a missing dvd player remote...mostly because they're tired and grumpy. Meh. I was feeling crappy all day before this. This one had to be editted on photobucket because the dog chewed through my ethernet cable so I can't hook up to the net on my desktop at the moment.

Halloooo ^-^ I've decided to set myself a challenge, inspired by the lovely keiki_boys ~ I can't do 30 days because I'll be moving back to Leeds on the 26th. But I can do 20 ^o^ Doodles or photos but no recyling ~ Here's the first



Relatively quick sketch of two new characters I'm working on with raineonthebrain 

Hey hey F-list =) Just wondering if anybody would be interesting in purchasing my first edition DVD box set of Moon Child. It's long out of print now. Information is available here: http://www.yesasia.com/global/moon-child-first-press-limited-edition-japan-version-english-subtitles/1002845729-0-0-0-en/info.html

All stuffs is present, including little photo album with three double sided photo cards and all three dvds in the original box. Not totally perfect condition, but mostly just a little dusty on the covers. I'd like to get £35 for it but feel free to make offers and to contact me about shipping or if you want pictures ~

Sorry if you've seen this already, I cross posted everywhere! =D It was soooo nice to take pikkies of Ace. It's been a helluva long time, and I'd forgotten how cooperative he can be. Floppy as hell though...I kept worrying that his feet were just gonna fall right off and he'd fall to bits! I suppose I should really do something about that, heh. I also could do with washing, conditioning and brushing his poor wig. It's getting threadbare and there are a million and one stray hairs it seems. None the less I really like these pikkies. I hope you do too =)



( More! )

Here are some of the pictures from yesterday =) I wound up with over a hundred shots in the end! But here are just a few of my favourites. Some of them aren't so good, but I'm posting them anyway lol.



( Peektures! )